life’s about decisions, and i’ve been wondering lately if i have made the right ones..

I was friends with all the “cool kids” in elementary school and middle school and than i stopped talking to them. Now that i’m a sophomore in high school i keep wondering how my life would be different, had i not stopped being friends with them. Instead of spending my Friday nights at home, i would be hooking up, drinking, and smoking. Of course those aren’t the best things to do but I always wanted my high school years to be fun and reckless. High school really isn’t turning out the way I imagined. I thought I would have more friends and not be that awkward girl that sits without saying a word in class. I thought i would have a lasting relationship through high school, which seems like it’s never going to happen. I just thought things would be different. 

so true.